finally manage to load this page...ARGH! cant type much..
manage to read most of the blogs..everyone seems fine. thats good :)
to those who are getting their results these days..good luck!
will talk more next time. take care
Monday, December 25, 2006
Monday, December 4, 2006
so far..
got a chance to online today becos we are back to our old house, where i can get a phoneline..
my holidays so far..nothing much. for the last few days, was just adjusting myself back to the life style i have when i m back in jb: no internet, no movies except those on tv, cant go out as i wish. have quite a healthy life style, sleep around 11pm, wake up around 8am..but this amount of sleeping hours is kind of too much for me. started on my story books already. not going to sleep so early at night anymore. replacing internet with my books...
how is the rest of my holidays going to be like? i really have no idea. see how things go
miss every single one of you..anyway do take care :) will try to catch up when i can online again.
my holidays so far..nothing much. for the last few days, was just adjusting myself back to the life style i have when i m back in jb: no internet, no movies except those on tv, cant go out as i wish. have quite a healthy life style, sleep around 11pm, wake up around 8am..but this amount of sleeping hours is kind of too much for me. started on my story books already. not going to sleep so early at night anymore. replacing internet with my books...
how is the rest of my holidays going to be like? i really have no idea. see how things go
miss every single one of you..anyway do take care :) will try to catch up when i can online again.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
home
time for me to go home..finally. have been stucked in kl since the last day of my exam. not too sure when i will be back in kl. most probably in feb next year
plans for the holidays..nothing much. just hope that i can make it to Singapore. will try. wish me good luck :)
results...not very good. sad..but to think about it, how good my results can be when i didnt work as hard as i could during the exam period? and really have to thank god that i dont have to repeat anything. next sem will have to work much harder..should try as hard as i can so that there will not be any regrets since it will be my final sem. WORK HARD FOR GOODNESS'S SAKE
cant think of much to say becos my brain is half asleep already haha..
TAKE CARE...dont think i will be online much anymore becos i cant. there isnt any phoneline at home. do take good care of yourself :) n you can reach me through my hp if you really miss me :p (joking joking) anyway you can always drop by my blog, read my old posts if you dont mind, or just listen to the song i put up here. currently playing is my favourite christmas song, Last Christmas, sang by a japanese guy called Yuji Oda. this song is the theme song of a japanese drama i watched some time ago. quite like this version of Last Christmas
thats all for now. bye :)
plans for the holidays..nothing much. just hope that i can make it to Singapore. will try. wish me good luck :)
results...not very good. sad..but to think about it, how good my results can be when i didnt work as hard as i could during the exam period? and really have to thank god that i dont have to repeat anything. next sem will have to work much harder..should try as hard as i can so that there will not be any regrets since it will be my final sem. WORK HARD FOR GOODNESS'S SAKE
cant think of much to say becos my brain is half asleep already haha..
TAKE CARE...dont think i will be online much anymore becos i cant. there isnt any phoneline at home. do take good care of yourself :) n you can reach me through my hp if you really miss me :p (joking joking) anyway you can always drop by my blog, read my old posts if you dont mind, or just listen to the song i put up here. currently playing is my favourite christmas song, Last Christmas, sang by a japanese guy called Yuji Oda. this song is the theme song of a japanese drama i watched some time ago. quite like this version of Last Christmas
thats all for now. bye :)
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
waiting
went out yesterday. decided not to stay at home n drove myself crazy by thinking about the results which will be released today. it was raining when i was on my way out and the ktm was delayed due to some technical problems. not a very smooth start but i did enjoy the day :)
watched The Red Kebaya. a movie about how a photographer found out about his past, his childhood. the setting is in Malaysia, some scenes in KL, most in Bukit Bendera. quite a malaysian based movie but the director is an ang moh. a simple sad story but the ending could be considered a happy one i guess. quite a nice movie
i entered the movie theatre quite early n i had nothing much to do. so decided to take a picture of the wall of the movie theatre..
well the real wall looks much nicer than the picture..
anyway i think so far the cinema wall in the movie theatre in Genting is the best. they put up pictures of those very significant movie characters played by those famous movie stars..those popular characters whereby you will be able to tell the character's name when you take one look at the picture. quite a nice way of decorating the cinema wall
bought something yesterday hehe..didnt spend too much on shopping these few weeks in kl. just bought 2 books two weeks ago and a top yesterday. really have to control my spendings. should spend less since i dont earn anything
waiting for my results which will be out in a few hours' time...going to be a long afternoon
watched The Red Kebaya. a movie about how a photographer found out about his past, his childhood. the setting is in Malaysia, some scenes in KL, most in Bukit Bendera. quite a malaysian based movie but the director is an ang moh. a simple sad story but the ending could be considered a happy one i guess. quite a nice movie
i entered the movie theatre quite early n i had nothing much to do. so decided to take a picture of the wall of the movie theatre..
well the real wall looks much nicer than the picture..
anyway i think so far the cinema wall in the movie theatre in Genting is the best. they put up pictures of those very significant movie characters played by those famous movie stars..those popular characters whereby you will be able to tell the character's name when you take one look at the picture. quite a nice way of decorating the cinema wall
bought something yesterday hehe..didnt spend too much on shopping these few weeks in kl. just bought 2 books two weeks ago and a top yesterday. really have to control my spendings. should spend less since i dont earn anything
waiting for my results which will be out in a few hours' time...going to be a long afternoon
Monday, November 27, 2006
movie freak
the number of movies i have watched so far since 10/11..
in cinema: 6
at home on tv: hmm at least 3..last night itself i watched 2, one after another
in my room watching those downloaded by my cousins: 3
rough total: 12 within 3 weeks. just nice, 1 dozen hehee
can really be called a movie freak already..but after i go home i wont be going to the cinema much anymore. leaving the house is not an easy thing..new housing area, no public transport yet, cant go far. n i need permisson to leave the house. never mind...make up when i m back in kl then :p
good luck to those who r starting their finals these few days :) all the best!
in cinema: 6
at home on tv: hmm at least 3..last night itself i watched 2, one after another
in my room watching those downloaded by my cousins: 3
rough total: 12 within 3 weeks. just nice, 1 dozen hehee
can really be called a movie freak already..but after i go home i wont be going to the cinema much anymore. leaving the house is not an easy thing..new housing area, no public transport yet, cant go far. n i need permisson to leave the house. never mind...make up when i m back in kl then :p
good luck to those who r starting their finals these few days :) all the best!
Sunday, November 26, 2006
lost
these days i blog really often. quite consistently. average one post everyday. but somehow i find that these posts are not as significant and meaningful as those in the past. last time i blog becos i have things to say, i have thoughts that i want to note down. nowadays i tend to find things to talk about on the blog, trying to blog eventhough i dont have much things to say. thats why some of the posts these days seem a bit meaningless i guess..the blog doesnt seem to be my blog anymore
i have a feel that i have lost certain parts of my true self these few weeks. i want to be myself again. talk about things that i really want to talk about. say things that i really feel like saying
blogging shouldnt be a routine. if not it will be boring and there will not be any meaning anymore
i have a feel that i have lost certain parts of my true self these few weeks. i want to be myself again. talk about things that i really want to talk about. say things that i really feel like saying
blogging shouldnt be a routine. if not it will be boring and there will not be any meaning anymore
Saturday, November 25, 2006
next week
This cutie is sitting beside the tv in the living room now. made up of 24 ballons, tied and twisted together by my 2nd cousin. looking at it, i feel as if it is saying, 'hug hug?'..kind of cute :) the balloons can only stay in shape for about 3 days. so decided to take a picture of it before it is gone forever
these 2 dogs are quite lovely too. i guess it is just the way i place them that makes them looking so lovely. actually they are much smaller than the baby, the pictures are not in scale
next week's plan...
monday: out
tuesday: do nothing
wednesday: check results
thurday/ friday: home
now....zzZZ
Friday, November 24, 2006
silent
what have i been doing? hmm...
talk to my laptop. talk to the tv. now i m talking on my blog
the best thing about all these talking is that..i dont have to use my mouth and make a single sound. dont feel like saying anything
but i will respond la if you feel like chatting. why dont you start the talking? switch roles for a while..
anyway hope you have a nice day. take care
talk to my laptop. talk to the tv. now i m talking on my blog
the best thing about all these talking is that..i dont have to use my mouth and make a single sound. dont feel like saying anything
but i will respond la if you feel like chatting. why dont you start the talking? switch roles for a while..
anyway hope you have a nice day. take care
Thursday, November 23, 2006
stay happy
not much plans for today. so far the day has been pleasant :)
stay happy..things will go smoother for you if you keep your mood good
can finish up more notes also (if you are studying hard now)
and when you are happy, i will be happy too :)
so stay happy! :D
stay happy..things will go smoother for you if you keep your mood good
can finish up more notes also (if you are studying hard now)
and when you are happy, i will be happy too :)
so stay happy! :D
enjoyed
had an enjoyable day. met up with Chai Har. she is one of the nicest seniors, one of the nicest friends i have met in uni. finally found a day whereby she was free to meet up :)
we were supposed to meet around noon. thank god i didnt have to wait too long for the buses. i took 3 buses to go back to Sunway and it took less than 2 hours for me to reach my destination. not too bad. and to me, she is the type of friends whereby i wouldnt mind travelling far or going through all the trouble just to meet up. is worth the trouble
met her in uni first becos she still had things to settle. we went to the monorail lab (oh we have a monorail station in uni but now there is no more monorail service and the place has been monified into a science lab, we call it monorail lab). then the usual lab area. dont know why just felt good to be back to the uni again
after she settled everything, we went to Sunway Pyramid. didnt do anything special. just lunch, movie, window shopping. but it was fun. becos i was doing all these with a good friend. we watched Happy Feet. it is an animation, about penguins which can dance or sing. they were really cute! especially the plump little baby penguins. so cute! :) but the ending was just so so. overall the movie wasnt too bad
saw 2 nice dresses today. one of them is the casual type, for normal outings. RM139 before offer, RM119 after offer. too bad. a bit too ex. the other one is the type for balls or dinner. short, knee-length. white with some pink flowery kind of design. RM199.90. actually the price is quite reasonable. but i m not planning to go for any balls or dinners soon. so no reason for me to buy. if only i m rich..hehehe
wonder when i will meet chai har again, since this year is her final year already. she is someone whom i wont forget becos of all the help and concern she has given me. going to try my best to keep in touch with her :)
we were supposed to meet around noon. thank god i didnt have to wait too long for the buses. i took 3 buses to go back to Sunway and it took less than 2 hours for me to reach my destination. not too bad. and to me, she is the type of friends whereby i wouldnt mind travelling far or going through all the trouble just to meet up. is worth the trouble
met her in uni first becos she still had things to settle. we went to the monorail lab (oh we have a monorail station in uni but now there is no more monorail service and the place has been monified into a science lab, we call it monorail lab). then the usual lab area. dont know why just felt good to be back to the uni again
after she settled everything, we went to Sunway Pyramid. didnt do anything special. just lunch, movie, window shopping. but it was fun. becos i was doing all these with a good friend. we watched Happy Feet. it is an animation, about penguins which can dance or sing. they were really cute! especially the plump little baby penguins. so cute! :) but the ending was just so so. overall the movie wasnt too bad
saw 2 nice dresses today. one of them is the casual type, for normal outings. RM139 before offer, RM119 after offer. too bad. a bit too ex. the other one is the type for balls or dinner. short, knee-length. white with some pink flowery kind of design. RM199.90. actually the price is quite reasonable. but i m not planning to go for any balls or dinners soon. so no reason for me to buy. if only i m rich..hehehe
wonder when i will meet chai har again, since this year is her final year already. she is someone whom i wont forget becos of all the help and concern she has given me. going to try my best to keep in touch with her :)
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
sunny. rainy. crazy
these days we have bright sunny mornings in kl..
taken on tuesday morning. the place where i stay now is on the left of the picture. but cant be seen here. clear blue sky...how nice
Sodagreen - Little Love Song (苏打绿 - 小情歌)
i like the background of the music video. the art which is expanding. the piano part of the song is nice
you want to know the meaning of the song?
i translated the lyrics..
The mandarin lyrics
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道
就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老
The translation
This is a simple little love song
which sings about the sadness of people's heart
I think I am very happy
Whenever I have your warmth
The air around my feet has changed
This is a simple little love song
which sings about the freedom in our heart
I think I am very suitable
To be a singer
Youth is flying in the wind
You know
Eventhough the heavy rain may ruin the whole city
I will still give you a hug
Cant bear to see you walking away from me
So i wrote down the unbearable sorrow
Eventhough the whole world may be kidnapped by loneliness
I wont run away
Cant escape from the fact that eventually everyone will turn old
So i wrote about the castle where time and my piano sound intervene
Eventually everyone will turn old
nowadays my emotion changes like the weather here. sunny in the morning..then the clear blue sky turns darker n darker..eventually thunderstom in the evening. the closer the date of the release of my results and the date for me to go home, the more unstable i will become i guess
i dont want to see the results. i dont want to go home. but i cant run away from the reality
i should keep myself more occupied
taken on tuesday morning. the place where i stay now is on the left of the picture. but cant be seen here. clear blue sky...how nice
Sodagreen - Little Love Song (苏打绿 - 小情歌)
i like the background of the music video. the art which is expanding. the piano part of the song is nice
you want to know the meaning of the song?
i translated the lyrics..
The mandarin lyrics
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道
就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老
The translation
This is a simple little love song
which sings about the sadness of people's heart
I think I am very happy
Whenever I have your warmth
The air around my feet has changed
This is a simple little love song
which sings about the freedom in our heart
I think I am very suitable
To be a singer
Youth is flying in the wind
You know
Eventhough the heavy rain may ruin the whole city
I will still give you a hug
Cant bear to see you walking away from me
So i wrote down the unbearable sorrow
Eventhough the whole world may be kidnapped by loneliness
I wont run away
Cant escape from the fact that eventually everyone will turn old
So i wrote about the castle where time and my piano sound intervene
Eventually everyone will turn old
nowadays my emotion changes like the weather here. sunny in the morning..then the clear blue sky turns darker n darker..eventually thunderstom in the evening. the closer the date of the release of my results and the date for me to go home, the more unstable i will become i guess
i dont want to see the results. i dont want to go home. but i cant run away from the reality
i should keep myself more occupied
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
shop
went to Mid Valley. window shopping n movie..
initially just wanted to go there, walk around, see things, kill time. on my way there, was telling myself that no movies for today. for once just dont go to the cinema. but after i reached there, the first destination that i went was the cinema...my heart won over my head again. watched The Covenant. it is a thriller. witchcraft practised by guys who were descendants of witch families. mystery. fast pace. rock songs. attractive actors (especially the lead actor. good figure, beautiful eyes, sexy lips. his name: Steven Strait). pretty lead actress (blond, sweet sunny smile. her name: Laura Ramsey). some special scary effects. enjoyed the movie
after the movie..window shopping. didnt have anything particular in mind that i want to buy. didnt meet anything that could catch my attention so much until i would spend my money on it
start to worry about my results.....speechless
to those who are having finals now..Good Luck!! :)
to those who are going to have finals really soon..Jia You!! dont think too much. just keep going :)
to those who are on holidays now..Continue enjoying your life. play hard!
initially just wanted to go there, walk around, see things, kill time. on my way there, was telling myself that no movies for today. for once just dont go to the cinema. but after i reached there, the first destination that i went was the cinema...my heart won over my head again. watched The Covenant. it is a thriller. witchcraft practised by guys who were descendants of witch families. mystery. fast pace. rock songs. attractive actors (especially the lead actor. good figure, beautiful eyes, sexy lips. his name: Steven Strait). pretty lead actress (blond, sweet sunny smile. her name: Laura Ramsey). some special scary effects. enjoyed the movie
after the movie..window shopping. didnt have anything particular in mind that i want to buy. didnt meet anything that could catch my attention so much until i would spend my money on it
start to worry about my results.....speechless
to those who are having finals now..Good Luck!! :)
to those who are going to have finals really soon..Jia You!! dont think too much. just keep going :)
to those who are on holidays now..Continue enjoying your life. play hard!
Monday, November 20, 2006
good
today cleaned up everything around me that could be cleaned up. the floor, my table, the extra bed in my room which serves as a table as well or sometimes a sofa (ya i have 2 beds in my room hehe). very clean. very neat. happy :)
another rainy afternoon
really white
another rainy afternoon
really white
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Saturday, November 18, 2006
random
wanted to sleep early. but now is 2.27am already n i m still in front of my com. haha..is like dat la when i can online 24 / 7
nothing much to share. just another normal saturday..oh got to know that another friend of mine is attached. feel happy for her
suddenly have a weird thought..how i wish my new sem is starting next week or some time soon. guess i m just too bored
will find some day to get out of the house next week. need to go out n breathe
nothing much to share. just another normal saturday..oh got to know that another friend of mine is attached. feel happy for her
suddenly have a weird thought..how i wish my new sem is starting next week or some time soon. guess i m just too bored
will find some day to get out of the house next week. need to go out n breathe
Friday, November 17, 2006
obstruction
i cant go home today. due to some transport problem back home..i will only be going back in December. 1/12. thats what i plan now
i hate it when obstruction occurs to my plans. since the last day of my finals, i have been thinking about when to go home. when i finally settle the things in kl n want to go home, i cant. delayed again
feel extremely bad. but what can i do? cry? tears cant solve problems. no point
carry on with life today
i hate it when obstruction occurs to my plans. since the last day of my finals, i have been thinking about when to go home. when i finally settle the things in kl n want to go home, i cant. delayed again
feel extremely bad. but what can i do? cry? tears cant solve problems. no point
carry on with life today
Thursday, November 16, 2006
things change in a blink of an eye
3 new albums which i have just finished downloaded + a movie tonight. what more can i ask for for today? :)
but didnt sleep well last night. was just wondering why there are ppl who are still so childish eventhough they are supposed to be addressed as young 'adults'. or maybe it is just misunderstanding, which actually doesnt seem like it. well i dont know la. i dont know what they are thinking about. it doesnt really matter anymore
yesterday didnt go anywhere. watched a movie at home. watched My Sassy Girl, the korean movie. this is the second time i watch this movie. the first time was few years ago when i was still in singapore for my A levels. in the hostel where i stayed, they used to have movie sessions during saturdays, whereby they would show movies in the dining hall and we could just go n enjoy it for free. i liked those sessions. i would still go n watch eventhough sometimes they showed crappy movies hahaha. anyway My Sassy Girl is one of my favourite movies which i dont mind rewatching. a very funny but yet loving n touching love story. the lead actress Jeon Ji-Hyun 全智贤 has always been my favourite korean actress. like her style. her character. her long straight black hair
this is one of her advertisements which i really like. olympus 2004
(really did manage to find the video at youtube. nice)
a while ago i was still happily thinking about the movie tonight. now i got to know that tomorrow i cant go home. my plans are obstructed again. never mind. i dont want to talk about it now
but didnt sleep well last night. was just wondering why there are ppl who are still so childish eventhough they are supposed to be addressed as young 'adults'. or maybe it is just misunderstanding, which actually doesnt seem like it. well i dont know la. i dont know what they are thinking about. it doesnt really matter anymore
yesterday didnt go anywhere. watched a movie at home. watched My Sassy Girl, the korean movie. this is the second time i watch this movie. the first time was few years ago when i was still in singapore for my A levels. in the hostel where i stayed, they used to have movie sessions during saturdays, whereby they would show movies in the dining hall and we could just go n enjoy it for free. i liked those sessions. i would still go n watch eventhough sometimes they showed crappy movies hahaha. anyway My Sassy Girl is one of my favourite movies which i dont mind rewatching. a very funny but yet loving n touching love story. the lead actress Jeon Ji-Hyun 全智贤 has always been my favourite korean actress. like her style. her character. her long straight black hair
this is one of her advertisements which i really like. olympus 2004
(really did manage to find the video at youtube. nice)
a while ago i was still happily thinking about the movie tonight. now i got to know that tomorrow i cant go home. my plans are obstructed again. never mind. i dont want to talk about it now
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
home
going home on saturday. finally settled the stuff here n i m ready to go
so starting from saturday, you wont see me on msn often anymore. i cant online much after i go home. there is no phoneline at home
not sure when i will be back to kl. i might be back in december..if not then it will be february next year when my new sem starts. this time round the new sem will start on 26/2, one day before my birthday hahaha..new sem at the beginning of the year always starts around my birthday
no solid plans for the holidays. only rough plans which cant be confirmed. will see how things go
so starting from saturday, you wont see me on msn often anymore. i cant online much after i go home. there is no phoneline at home
not sure when i will be back to kl. i might be back in december..if not then it will be february next year when my new sem starts. this time round the new sem will start on 26/2, one day before my birthday hahaha..new sem at the beginning of the year always starts around my birthday
no solid plans for the holidays. only rough plans which cant be confirmed. will see how things go
quite a good day
you like the new feature on my blog? well you will realise it if you have your speakers on
like the song? i know most of the ppl will tell me: it makes me sleepy..hahaha. i remembered one or two semesters ago, when me n one of my friends were doing our work in the computer lab while listening to the songs that i was playing, the person told me, 'wah dont play this kind of song. it makes me sleepy..' when i was playing another song by Lisa Ono. well it is ok if you dont like it, becos different ppl have different taste, different preferences. i like coffee, but you may not like it and prefer tea instead. i dont expect ppl to like what i like
so..if you like the song...enjoy :)
if you dont like the song...hmm. turn the player off ? hehe
today..went out with my cousin. tagged along with him to explore places. the first place we went was Ikano Power Centre, the shopping complex near The Curve. quite a nice place, with a big Popular bookshop. there is this pet shop there..quite a good one. the shop is quite big with a few sections. they sell quite a variety of pets: snakes, turtles, tortoises, frogs, lizards, dogs, cats, rabbits, rodents, fish. can find Nemo and Dory there too hahaa..the exotic ones like the reptiles are really quite an eye opener. they have turtles which are really big n make me wonder how old they are. enjoyed looking at one of the big turtles nibbling at its vegetables hehe. how cute. the variety of snakes really made my hair standing..yuck. the dogs..well they have quite a few types there, one of them which caught my attention was a golden retriever. a puppy. 7 weeks old. guess how much it cost? RM1688...hahaha. sorry i cant set the puppy free by paying the price. to me the pet shop is a good one becos the animals inside are actually quite active, not like those that i see in other pet shops whereby they are either sleeping or just lying around, not moving. seems that they are well taken care off. i hope so
the second place we went was the Cineleisure next to Ikano Power Centre. They have Cathay Cineplex there. the cinema looks great! but too bad..we didnt catch any movies there. just walked around the complex. it has the potential to develop into a good entertainment place. shall see what it will be like in future
my new books
thats all for today
like the song? i know most of the ppl will tell me: it makes me sleepy..hahaha. i remembered one or two semesters ago, when me n one of my friends were doing our work in the computer lab while listening to the songs that i was playing, the person told me, 'wah dont play this kind of song. it makes me sleepy..' when i was playing another song by Lisa Ono. well it is ok if you dont like it, becos different ppl have different taste, different preferences. i like coffee, but you may not like it and prefer tea instead. i dont expect ppl to like what i like
so..if you like the song...enjoy :)
if you dont like the song...hmm. turn the player off ? hehe
today..went out with my cousin. tagged along with him to explore places. the first place we went was Ikano Power Centre, the shopping complex near The Curve. quite a nice place, with a big Popular bookshop. there is this pet shop there..quite a good one. the shop is quite big with a few sections. they sell quite a variety of pets: snakes, turtles, tortoises, frogs, lizards, dogs, cats, rabbits, rodents, fish. can find Nemo and Dory there too hahaa..the exotic ones like the reptiles are really quite an eye opener. they have turtles which are really big n make me wonder how old they are. enjoyed looking at one of the big turtles nibbling at its vegetables hehe. how cute. the variety of snakes really made my hair standing..yuck. the dogs..well they have quite a few types there, one of them which caught my attention was a golden retriever. a puppy. 7 weeks old. guess how much it cost? RM1688...hahaha. sorry i cant set the puppy free by paying the price. to me the pet shop is a good one becos the animals inside are actually quite active, not like those that i see in other pet shops whereby they are either sleeping or just lying around, not moving. seems that they are well taken care off. i hope so
the second place we went was the Cineleisure next to Ikano Power Centre. They have Cathay Cineplex there. the cinema looks great! but too bad..we didnt catch any movies there. just walked around the complex. it has the potential to develop into a good entertainment place. shall see what it will be like in future
the last place we went was One Utama shopping centre. it is quite a big shopping complex. still didnt finish exploring the place yet. will leave the undiscovered part for another day
bought 2 books today. one is called The Family Way, by Tony Parsons. i have 2 or 3 of his books and his stories mainly revolve around human relationships, family, love. quite nice. i hope the one i bought today will be good too. the other book is called Brave New World, by Aldous Huxley. quite a famous science fiction. i got the chance to read the book during my A levels when my general paper tutor lent me the book but i didnt manage to even start reading it properly, not to say finishing it. hope i will enjoy the story. ya heart was really pain after i bought the two books. books have never been cheap. what to do..i discovered them when i was walking around in MPH. i would rather pay for the books, let my heart feel pain than regret for not buying them after i left the shop
my new books
thats all for today
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Monday, November 13, 2006
the look of love
a song by Diana Krall
The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can't disguise
The look of love is saying so much more than just words could ever say
And what my heart has heard, well it takes my breath away
I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
You've got the
Look of love, it's on your face
A look that time can't erase
Be mine tonight, let this be just the start of so many nights like this
Let's take a lover's vow and then seal it with a kiss
I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
Don't ever go
Don't ever go
I love you so
The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can't disguise
The look of love is saying so much more than just words could ever say
And what my heart has heard, well it takes my breath away
I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
You've got the
Look of love, it's on your face
A look that time can't erase
Be mine tonight, let this be just the start of so many nights like this
Let's take a lover's vow and then seal it with a kiss
I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you, now that I have found you
Don't ever go
Don't ever go
I love you so
understood
had my question answered n my doubts cleared. feeling better
it is really time for me to go home. really hope that i can settle the things here fast n go home soon
saw this picture taken by my cousin when he went to China for holidays lately. quite like it
this sleeping beauty lives in one of the zoos in China. so cute.. feel like touching it
it is really time for me to go home. really hope that i can settle the things here fast n go home soon
saw this picture taken by my cousin when he went to China for holidays lately. quite like it
this sleeping beauty lives in one of the zoos in China. so cute.. feel like touching it
dont understand
tell me...what kind of friends are these when they come to you for help n you do try to help one way or another, but they dont ask you along when they have outings?
it hurts when this kind of thing happens. i treat ppl with a true heart n yet i see this kind of thing happens right in front of my eyes
maybe i m just too naive sometimes. maybe i should learn to be more realistic
as time goes by, you can really see who are the ones who really deserve your time, who are the ones who really care about you. thats how i feel
there is this sentence in this famous book called The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupéry, 'you can only see things clearly with your heart, what is essential is invisible to the eye.'
guess it is true. you will only realise what is truely important, how true a person is to you, with your heart. ya loh..your heart never lies one
shouldnt let minor things to spoilt my mood for the holidays. i have other more important things to care about. shouldnt care too much about things that i shouldnt care about
i should love myself more. be happy. stay happy. shouldnt let myself feel unhappy
it hurts when this kind of thing happens. i treat ppl with a true heart n yet i see this kind of thing happens right in front of my eyes
maybe i m just too naive sometimes. maybe i should learn to be more realistic
as time goes by, you can really see who are the ones who really deserve your time, who are the ones who really care about you. thats how i feel
there is this sentence in this famous book called The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupéry, 'you can only see things clearly with your heart, what is essential is invisible to the eye.'
guess it is true. you will only realise what is truely important, how true a person is to you, with your heart. ya loh..your heart never lies one
shouldnt let minor things to spoilt my mood for the holidays. i have other more important things to care about. shouldnt care too much about things that i shouldnt care about
i should love myself more. be happy. stay happy. shouldnt let myself feel unhappy
Sunday, November 12, 2006
yesterday. today.
yesterday....
went to my 2nd cousin's graduation ceremony. watched how ppl had their graduation. how proud the parents were looking at their child graduating. how beautiful the flowers received by the graduates were. how is my graduation going to be like? seems close yet still far away..
my 2nd cousin
cousin n his parents
waiting for a photo shoot
during the graduation ceremony. obviously he is the one looking at my direction with a broad smile
today...
movie day. went to Mid Valley to watch movie. initially just wanted to watch one but i reached Mid Valley really early around noon n my friends could only join me in the afternoon around 3pm. didnt have the mood to shop. so went for a movie myself 1st before my friends arrived. watched the second movie after they arrived
the first movie was Death Note. Japanese movie. it was actually a comic based movie. looked like a horror movie but it wasnt. quite a nice one. looking forward to the sequel next year
the second movie was Step Up. holywood movie. a movie about dance. how a punk eventually found the dream of his life through a girl. they could really dance very well
enjoyed both the movies. worth the RM11 i paid for each of them. RM11 for one movie becos today is sunday. weekdays would be rm6. haih..heart kind of pain. watching movies during weekends is like dat
guess i have played too much these 3 days. kind of tired. just feel like going home fast..
bed time. good night
went to my 2nd cousin's graduation ceremony. watched how ppl had their graduation. how proud the parents were looking at their child graduating. how beautiful the flowers received by the graduates were. how is my graduation going to be like? seems close yet still far away..
my 2nd cousin
cousin n his parents
waiting for a photo shoot
during the graduation ceremony. obviously he is the one looking at my direction with a broad smile
today...
movie day. went to Mid Valley to watch movie. initially just wanted to watch one but i reached Mid Valley really early around noon n my friends could only join me in the afternoon around 3pm. didnt have the mood to shop. so went for a movie myself 1st before my friends arrived. watched the second movie after they arrived
the first movie was Death Note. Japanese movie. it was actually a comic based movie. looked like a horror movie but it wasnt. quite a nice one. looking forward to the sequel next year
the second movie was Step Up. holywood movie. a movie about dance. how a punk eventually found the dream of his life through a girl. they could really dance very well
enjoyed both the movies. worth the RM11 i paid for each of them. RM11 for one movie becos today is sunday. weekdays would be rm6. haih..heart kind of pain. watching movies during weekends is like dat
guess i have played too much these 3 days. kind of tired. just feel like going home fast..
bed time. good night
Friday, November 10, 2006
start
finals of the sem ended yesterday. the paper wasnt too bad. anyway everything has ended. just wait for the cold hard truth on 30/11
after the paper, went to One Utama Shopping Centre. had lunch with my uni friends. then i met up with Ee Ling (my A levels-period friend) while my uni friends continued their shopping spree
have long wanted to meet up with Ee Ling since she came back from UK but i was busy. so after finals i thought i should meet up with her before i go home. we went for a movie, The Departed. it was the Holywood version of Infernal Affairs (无间道). strong cast: Jack Nicholson, Leornado di Caprio, Matt Damon. 18SG (means bloody basically). the movie was quite ok. we went for the movie without knowing much about the story line n everything n the starting of the movie was kind of bored. i thought i wasnt going to enjoy it. but i was wrong haha. it was quite a nice one.
after the movie while i was leaving, i realised my uni friends actually went for the same movie too! hahaha. the girls were just sitting in the row in front of me, their seats right in front of mine. guess we entered the cinema at different timing n thats y we didnt realise hehehe. life is really full of coincidence...
Ee Ling left after the movie. she needed to rush off. will catch her again in future :)
after One Utama, i went for a cell group meeting. they were having a birthday celebration for the november babies. (well i m not a christian. but sometimes i do go to the church and the cell group meeting when i feel like going or when my friends ask me to go. just dont mind learning about the bible n meet up with my friends there) so yup..n it was a big day for the cell group. they called the event cell group multiplication, whereby the group separates to form another group becos the number of members has increased. the birthday celebration after the meeting was quite ok. but by that time which was around 10pm plus i was quite dead already haha. didnt sleep much the night b4 n i was out for the whole day. anyway the food was quite ok. n i was quite glad dat the cell group leader was really happy becos i could make it for the night. she was one of the birthday girls of the night. i like it when i know that i manage to make ppl happy. see ppl around me happy makes me happy too
Hooi Yee n Nina
Wan Ting
Burger King, One Utama
my cute dearie
my sweet dearie
Ee Ling
Kelly the cell group leader n Nina.
well she is more than just a leader..she is my friend :)
last night one of the things i learnt about is 'the nature of love is to give'. true, no? when you interact with ppl in life, you give when you care. you care for ppl too, not just to receive care. how would the ppl whom you care know that you care if you dont show it? human interaction is a two-way thing. it is not a one-way street. if you care, you should give
holidays have started. hope i will have a good one :)
after the paper, went to One Utama Shopping Centre. had lunch with my uni friends. then i met up with Ee Ling (my A levels-period friend) while my uni friends continued their shopping spree
have long wanted to meet up with Ee Ling since she came back from UK but i was busy. so after finals i thought i should meet up with her before i go home. we went for a movie, The Departed. it was the Holywood version of Infernal Affairs (无间道). strong cast: Jack Nicholson, Leornado di Caprio, Matt Damon. 18SG (means bloody basically). the movie was quite ok. we went for the movie without knowing much about the story line n everything n the starting of the movie was kind of bored. i thought i wasnt going to enjoy it. but i was wrong haha. it was quite a nice one.
after the movie while i was leaving, i realised my uni friends actually went for the same movie too! hahaha. the girls were just sitting in the row in front of me, their seats right in front of mine. guess we entered the cinema at different timing n thats y we didnt realise hehehe. life is really full of coincidence...
Ee Ling left after the movie. she needed to rush off. will catch her again in future :)
after One Utama, i went for a cell group meeting. they were having a birthday celebration for the november babies. (well i m not a christian. but sometimes i do go to the church and the cell group meeting when i feel like going or when my friends ask me to go. just dont mind learning about the bible n meet up with my friends there) so yup..n it was a big day for the cell group. they called the event cell group multiplication, whereby the group separates to form another group becos the number of members has increased. the birthday celebration after the meeting was quite ok. but by that time which was around 10pm plus i was quite dead already haha. didnt sleep much the night b4 n i was out for the whole day. anyway the food was quite ok. n i was quite glad dat the cell group leader was really happy becos i could make it for the night. she was one of the birthday girls of the night. i like it when i know that i manage to make ppl happy. see ppl around me happy makes me happy too
Hooi Yee n Nina
Wan Ting
Burger King, One Utama
my cute dearie
my sweet dearie
Ee Ling
Kelly the cell group leader n Nina.
well she is more than just a leader..she is my friend :)
last night one of the things i learnt about is 'the nature of love is to give'. true, no? when you interact with ppl in life, you give when you care. you care for ppl too, not just to receive care. how would the ppl whom you care know that you care if you dont show it? human interaction is a two-way thing. it is not a one-way street. if you care, you should give
holidays have started. hope i will have a good one :)
Wednesday, November 8, 2006
work hard
one last paper tomorrow. really have to work as hard as possible. the paper i had yesterday was quite horrible. couldnt remember what i read. lost free marks. how smart. felt so useless. today really have to focus n make up for the paper yesterday. should hold on to the second chance tight n make the best out of it. STUDY!
have a great day. remember..no matter how hard things are, everything will still be fine in the end.
stay happy :)
* the day turns brighter when my song request on msn was actually answered :) thanks for brightening up my day
have a great day. remember..no matter how hard things are, everything will still be fine in the end.
stay happy :)
* the day turns brighter when my song request on msn was actually answered :) thanks for brightening up my day
Monday, November 6, 2006
waiting for the next phase
today didnt really start off very well though..a minor little bad thing happened. minor...but i m tired of it. so ya loh..guess thats it. quite decided
2 more papers to go. wed n fri. waiting to for this sem to come to an end officially. waiting for the next phase..3-month holidays. the results will be out on 30/11. before the results are released, i want some carefree life. i dont want to think much about anything else. just want to enjoy myself before i go home
time to go
evanescence - call me when you're sober
the hot guy in the music video - oliver goodwill
2 more papers to go. wed n fri. waiting to for this sem to come to an end officially. waiting for the next phase..3-month holidays. the results will be out on 30/11. before the results are released, i want some carefree life. i dont want to think much about anything else. just want to enjoy myself before i go home
time to go
evanescence - call me when you're sober
the hot guy in the music video - oliver goodwill
some truths of the day
the truth is that...today i didnt do very well for the paper. but thank god that one of the past year questions did come out in the essay part. glad that there is still some luck with me
the truth is that...something which i had been thinking about since yesterday proved to be wrong today! not the way i thought. hahaha..what a relief. sometimes our mind do play games with us, especially we are already quite stressed. exam drives ppl crazy? in the past i dont really believe it. but now...hmmm
the truth is that...i m really excited now! hehehe someone helped me downloaded the song i wanted n sent it to me :D so nice..thank you :)
the truth is that...i m happy today eventhough the paper wasnt too good. HAPPY :)
the truth is that...something which i had been thinking about since yesterday proved to be wrong today! not the way i thought. hahaha..what a relief. sometimes our mind do play games with us, especially we are already quite stressed. exam drives ppl crazy? in the past i dont really believe it. but now...hmmm
the truth is that...i didnt realise streamxy had actually recovered until i went to pluck off the phoneline from the house modem n tried to connect it to my laptop to use dial up connection. i plucked off the phoneline while my cousin was half way using streamxy..
'thought i told you streamxy is back just now in the car? DUDE I WAS HALFWAY DOING SOMETHING..' opps..sorry
the truth is that...i m really excited now! hehehe someone helped me downloaded the song i wanted n sent it to me :D so nice..thank you :)
the truth is that...i m happy today eventhough the paper wasnt too good. HAPPY :)
Saturday, November 4, 2006
still not very good
well..i think if you have read my blog yesterday you would have read the post which i put up yesterday. somehow today it disappeared into the thin air. didnt delete it. just gone. n last night i couldnt load my own blog page properly. only half of the page appeared n the sidebar was empty. really made me worry for a while..i dont want my blog to disappear. felt better after i found out that actually others still could load the page fully. sigh..is it something wrong with the dial up connection? or something wrong with blogger? i dont know..
yesterday was saying that something went wrong with my digestive system. cant digest food properly. feel bloated and cant defecate properly too. today felt slightly better. hope it will recover soon. it is really not good when you are not feeling well during exam period. was also saying that i have 3 papers next week. n after i finish all my papers i should go home but i dont feel like going home. was quite depressed yesterday. well after last night, just want to say, thanks jia en for the chat. i really felt much better after the chat. n thanks dingying for reading my blog for so many times in a day
i guess i should start preparing for the paper tomorrow. n ya again, dont worry about me. somehow everything will be fine in the end. i really do hope so
yesterday was saying that something went wrong with my digestive system. cant digest food properly. feel bloated and cant defecate properly too. today felt slightly better. hope it will recover soon. it is really not good when you are not feeling well during exam period. was also saying that i have 3 papers next week. n after i finish all my papers i should go home but i dont feel like going home. was quite depressed yesterday. well after last night, just want to say, thanks jia en for the chat. i really felt much better after the chat. n thanks dingying for reading my blog for so many times in a day
i guess i should start preparing for the paper tomorrow. n ya again, dont worry about me. somehow everything will be fine in the end. i really do hope so
Friday, November 3, 2006
care
there are many ways to show care. agree?
how do you normally show your care? talk to ppl you care about often? ask about their well being? try to make them feel better when they dont feel good in any way at all? show them somehow that they are important to you? show them or share with them the good things you have? try to help them one way or another? try to make them happy? try to spend some time with them eventhough you are so busy? so many different ways right..
well then..do you realise when ppl try to show their care to you? do you appreciate what they do? do you know when ppl care about you?
as for me..i do try to care as much as i can for ppl around me, especially those that care a lot about me. do try to appreciate every little thing that ppl do for me. i dont know whether ppl appreciate what i do sometimes. i wonder sometimes whether ppl i care about do care about me too
how much do you care about ppl around you?
how do you normally show your care? talk to ppl you care about often? ask about their well being? try to make them feel better when they dont feel good in any way at all? show them somehow that they are important to you? show them or share with them the good things you have? try to help them one way or another? try to make them happy? try to spend some time with them eventhough you are so busy? so many different ways right..
well then..do you realise when ppl try to show their care to you? do you appreciate what they do? do you know when ppl care about you?
as for me..i do try to care as much as i can for ppl around me, especially those that care a lot about me. do try to appreciate every little thing that ppl do for me. i dont know whether ppl appreciate what i do sometimes. i wonder sometimes whether ppl i care about do care about me too
how much do you care about ppl around you?
Thursday, November 2, 2006
photos
a few more photos from yong in canada which i received yesterday :)
those red colour things are red berries, not maple leaves..
i like this set the best :)
want to show you some of my old photos taken during my flight to Terrengganu, part of the journey to Pulau Redang in july 2006
morning flight
taking off
beautiful start of the day
middle of nowhere in the sky
so close yet so farway
bed of clouds
hope you like the pictures :)
those red colour things are red berries, not maple leaves..
i like this set the best :)
want to show you some of my old photos taken during my flight to Terrengganu, part of the journey to Pulau Redang in july 2006
morning flight
taking off
beautiful start of the day
middle of nowhere in the sky
so close yet so farway
bed of clouds
hope you like the pictures :)
what a day
actually today started off fine. received a few more photos from canada :) wanted to post them up but couldnt. thanks to the wonderful dial up connection. haih..when will the streamxy work again? i want streamxy. ARGH
later in the evening after i woke up from my nap..had terrible stomachache. VERY TERRIBLE. could really feel the intestine cramping so hard. cold sweat. whole body turned weak. but after dinner no more pain. stomach still feel a bit weird though. must be either becos i mess up my sleeping hours, too much coffee n tea, or the food in the japanese restaurant that i went on tuesday. hope tmr will be fine.
i hope streamxy will recover soon. i plan to post up some old photos taken during my flight to Terengganu, part of the journey to Pulau Redang few weeks ago
for the time being..all i want is to study
thats all for now
later in the evening after i woke up from my nap..had terrible stomachache. VERY TERRIBLE. could really feel the intestine cramping so hard. cold sweat. whole body turned weak. but after dinner no more pain. stomach still feel a bit weird though. must be either becos i mess up my sleeping hours, too much coffee n tea, or the food in the japanese restaurant that i went on tuesday. hope tmr will be fine.
i hope streamxy will recover soon. i plan to post up some old photos taken during my flight to Terengganu, part of the journey to Pulau Redang few weeks ago
for the time being..all i want is to study
thats all for now
Wednesday, November 1, 2006
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
attitude. coincidence.
oasis - wonderwall
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
look at the lead singer in the mv. his big sunglasses. the facial expression. the way he sits. the way he pulls his shirt. Attitude. feel like giving him a slap on his face hahaha. i like their style. their songs r quite cool
today still feel kind of tired. last night didnt have a good sleep eventhough i slept quite early. woke up at the wrong timing, with a wrong mood. tmr should be fine
somehow i always feel that the weather correlates to how i feel, eventhough i do understand well that it is coincidence. today feel a bit tired n gloomy, n it is drizzling outside. not much sunshine like how i feel. sometimes when i feel very bad, outside will be raining heavily. sometimes the weather is so good, bright sunny day with clear blue sky n white fluffy clouds, n coincidentally my mood will be quite beautiful on that day. coincidence..what a weird thing to understand in life
looking forward to tmr. going to catch a movie with my cousin. short break in the middle of the exam period. i dont care la. a few hours of enjoyment wont affect things much. hope tmr will be fun :)
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
look at the lead singer in the mv. his big sunglasses. the facial expression. the way he sits. the way he pulls his shirt. Attitude. feel like giving him a slap on his face hahaha. i like their style. their songs r quite cool
today still feel kind of tired. last night didnt have a good sleep eventhough i slept quite early. woke up at the wrong timing, with a wrong mood. tmr should be fine
somehow i always feel that the weather correlates to how i feel, eventhough i do understand well that it is coincidence. today feel a bit tired n gloomy, n it is drizzling outside. not much sunshine like how i feel. sometimes when i feel very bad, outside will be raining heavily. sometimes the weather is so good, bright sunny day with clear blue sky n white fluffy clouds, n coincidentally my mood will be quite beautiful on that day. coincidence..what a weird thing to understand in life
looking forward to tmr. going to catch a movie with my cousin. short break in the middle of the exam period. i dont care la. a few hours of enjoyment wont affect things much. hope tmr will be fun :)
Monday, October 30, 2006
another day
the paper today actually wasnt too bad. especially for someone like me who just couldnt start the revision early, dragged until the very last minute n tried to cramp everything in ONE NIGHT. leaving the exam hall feeling quite good actually hehe, becos it didnt turn out as bad as i thought it would be. just hope that the result will be good
feel kind of...sad
haih..
Friday, October 27, 2006
stock market
exam period now. so emotion will fluctuate even more compared to normal days. stock-market style. roller-coaster like. whatever way u call it. just a bit more unstable
finished my 1st paper yesterday. spent some time with my dearie in her room while waiting for the ride home. enjoyable chat. after the paper i was completely down. all i wanted was just to sleep. but then managed to meet up with her for lunch, n later decided to just go to her room while waiting for my cousin to come. nice chat. was really happy after that
last night tried to study but my brain was just too tired to take in anything. no point forcing anything to go in. had a good sleep. woke up feeling great today
have a nice day. stay happy. i will be happy too if you are happy
finished my 1st paper yesterday. spent some time with my dearie in her room while waiting for the ride home. enjoyable chat. after the paper i was completely down. all i wanted was just to sleep. but then managed to meet up with her for lunch, n later decided to just go to her room while waiting for my cousin to come. nice chat. was really happy after that
last night tried to study but my brain was just too tired to take in anything. no point forcing anything to go in. had a good sleep. woke up feeling great today
have a nice day. stay happy. i will be happy too if you are happy
Thursday, October 26, 2006
little shine for the day
well..guess is ok that so far no one has brightened up my gloomy day. glad to know that i managed to brighten up someone's day though
(glad that u like it. thanks for the chat n the jokes)
(n thanks to my dearie Hooi Yee for the good luck msg. i know u care)
(glad that u like it. thanks for the chat n the jokes)
(n thanks to my dearie Hooi Yee for the good luck msg. i know u care)
the time of the year
exam starts tomorrow
nothing much to say. dont feel like saying anything
as gloomy as the weather now. no shine
i need some sleep
nothing much to say. dont feel like saying anything
as gloomy as the weather now. no shine
i need some sleep
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
memories
joy enriquez - how can i not love you
i prefer the lyrics to the melody..the lyrics r good
Cannot Touch, Cannot Hold
Cannot Be Together
Cannot Love, Cannot Kiss
Cannot Have Each Other
Must Be Strong
And We Must Let Go
Cannot Say What Our Hearts Must Know
How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walk Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
Cannot Dream
Cannot Share Sweet And Tender Moments
Cannot Feel How We Feel
Must Pretend Its over
Must Be Brave
And We Must Go On
Must Not Say What We've Known All Along
How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walks Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You
Must Be Brave
And We Must Be Strong
Cannot Say What We've Known All Along
How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walk Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You When You Are Gone
how does one walk away from all of the memories? do you know how? i think it is even harder for ppl like me who can keep memories well. i have a weird brain which can keep things for quite long. conversations, events, experiences...i obviously dont know how to walk away from memories haha
today as usual i watched the taiwanese drama that i have been chasing these days. it is called The Hospital (白色巨塔). in the episode today, the female character was adviced to forget about certain things in the past. things which were meant to be forgotten should be forgotten. well..i think it is easier to say it than to do it, no? sometimes we just cant help but to live in memories. we will have to learn how to let go of certain memories, or bury them deep down inside ourselves, keep the memories, try not to reminisce, in order to move on with life. it is not easy to leave certain memories, especially good ones, but we cannot live on forever in the past, can we?
memories are meant to be kept. you can think about them once in a while, but not all the time. remember
i prefer the lyrics to the melody..the lyrics r good
Cannot Touch, Cannot Hold
Cannot Be Together
Cannot Love, Cannot Kiss
Cannot Have Each Other
Must Be Strong
And We Must Let Go
Cannot Say What Our Hearts Must Know
How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walk Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
Cannot Dream
Cannot Share Sweet And Tender Moments
Cannot Feel How We Feel
Must Pretend Its over
Must Be Brave
And We Must Go On
Must Not Say What We've Known All Along
How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walks Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You
Must Be Brave
And We Must Be Strong
Cannot Say What We've Known All Along
How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walk Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You When You Are Gone
how does one walk away from all of the memories? do you know how? i think it is even harder for ppl like me who can keep memories well. i have a weird brain which can keep things for quite long. conversations, events, experiences...i obviously dont know how to walk away from memories haha
today as usual i watched the taiwanese drama that i have been chasing these days. it is called The Hospital (白色巨塔). in the episode today, the female character was adviced to forget about certain things in the past. things which were meant to be forgotten should be forgotten. well..i think it is easier to say it than to do it, no? sometimes we just cant help but to live in memories. we will have to learn how to let go of certain memories, or bury them deep down inside ourselves, keep the memories, try not to reminisce, in order to move on with life. it is not easy to leave certain memories, especially good ones, but we cannot live on forever in the past, can we?
memories are meant to be kept. you can think about them once in a while, but not all the time. remember
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
back
back to KL. exam starts on friday.
last few days..supposed to study hard. but i spent most of my time dreaming. thinking. sleeping. didnt study as much as i wanted but i had a good rest. 2 more days before my first paper. have to work hard. BETTTER WORK HARD
tonight..something unexpected happened n cheered me up :) but my beautiful mood didnt last long. agitated by some ppl who tried to ask for help. well..i did try to help. but i wasnt too willingly to help. asking for too much details. just asking too much! sigh...i used to be someone who is so willingly to help ppl. but now..no more. i m too tired of ppl who just take advantage of my kindness. only talk to me when they need help, shower me with plenty of questions..am i being very bad? for being reluntant to help sometimes? or is it only correct that i should just give help willingly to anyone at all? n let ppl take me for granted? i dont know what to say
i guess i need some sleep. start off fresh tomorrow. hope tomorrow will be good
last few days..supposed to study hard. but i spent most of my time dreaming. thinking. sleeping. didnt study as much as i wanted but i had a good rest. 2 more days before my first paper. have to work hard. BETTTER WORK HARD
tonight..something unexpected happened n cheered me up :) but my beautiful mood didnt last long. agitated by some ppl who tried to ask for help. well..i did try to help. but i wasnt too willingly to help. asking for too much details. just asking too much! sigh...i used to be someone who is so willingly to help ppl. but now..no more. i m too tired of ppl who just take advantage of my kindness. only talk to me when they need help, shower me with plenty of questions..am i being very bad? for being reluntant to help sometimes? or is it only correct that i should just give help willingly to anyone at all? n let ppl take me for granted? i dont know what to say
i guess i need some sleep. start off fresh tomorrow. hope tomorrow will be good
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
new phase
finally finished up all my assignments and reports! :D FINALLY. had been thinking, doing, rushing for the past 2 weeks. finally clear them up. what a relief
so the next big thing: finals for this sem. will start preparing tmr. i want to do better this sem
realise something these few days..sometimes we are hurt becos we allow ourselves to get hurt. we feel hurt becos of ourselves, not becos of what others do or say. make sense? i m not really sure..
going home on thursday :) will be back on tuesday. by then, some things definitely will not be the same anymore...hope by then, i will be more confident for my first 2 papers.
so the next big thing: finals for this sem. will start preparing tmr. i want to do better this sem
realise something these few days..sometimes we are hurt becos we allow ourselves to get hurt. we feel hurt becos of ourselves, not becos of what others do or say. make sense? i m not really sure..
going home on thursday :) will be back on tuesday. by then, some things definitely will not be the same anymore...hope by then, i will be more confident for my first 2 papers.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
interest
i like drawing. since i was very young.
my 1st master piece was actually done before i joined kindergarden if i didnt remember wrongly. drew a big whale on the wall of my house with coloured pencils. i didnt remember any punishments though hahaha..still roughly remember how i felt while i was drawing it, how the whale became bigger n bigger on the wall, how i let my imagination ran wild and expressed it on the wall.
enjoyed colouring when i grew a bit bigger. really liked those books which had pictures for u to colour. would feel quite happy when i had new colouring books, felt quite thrilled with new coloured pencils. Luna brand coloured pencils (the one with a symbolic sail boat on the cover) are always the best. until now i still think Luna is the best haha..
then i started to join drawing classes. learnt how to draw a nice picture, how to colour them. starting from crayons, then some water colour, pencil sketching..then i found a better teacher. thats when i improved much. but too bad i stopped my classes when i was Form 3. PMR year. government exam. my mum wanted me to concentrate on my studies. i was entering the stage of learning how to do sketches, u know sketching with real things in front of u, drawing human portrait kind of drawing, when i had to stop my classes. i never join the classes back after PMR, becos drawing was not one of my subjects in sch anymore..my mum said there was no need to join the classes anymore. it has always been a sad thing that i never join back the classes. if not i would have learnt how to draw human portraits and now i can just draw whoever i want hahaha..
still draw once in a while. but i rarely keep what i drew. they are always meant to be presents. the only thing i drew lately which i didnt give it away is a snow angel. just like the angel. drew it just to keep it for myself. one of the things that i drew which i was really quite satisfied with it is a Mitsubitshi Lancer Evo. i have never liked to draw cars n i thought the drawing would turn out bad. but i was really satisfied with it and felt quite relunctant to give it away hahaha, but still it was meant to be a gift. yesterday i drew some fungi. was short of time so i cut off some details haha. but i was still quite satisfied with the end product.
i enjoy drawing. although i cant draw very very well. just sit there, draw, colour. concentrate on what i draw. i dont really mind how long it will take me to finish my work. i just enjoy the whole process. but so far i realise all the things i draw just contain these few colours: blue, purple, black, white. maybe my life is just too blue. bright colours just cant catch my attention. they cant enter my life.
i dont know when i will draw again. will just start again when the time comes.
the picture which i followed when i drew the Evo
my blue angel. this is what i drew
my fungi
my 1st master piece was actually done before i joined kindergarden if i didnt remember wrongly. drew a big whale on the wall of my house with coloured pencils. i didnt remember any punishments though hahaha..still roughly remember how i felt while i was drawing it, how the whale became bigger n bigger on the wall, how i let my imagination ran wild and expressed it on the wall.
enjoyed colouring when i grew a bit bigger. really liked those books which had pictures for u to colour. would feel quite happy when i had new colouring books, felt quite thrilled with new coloured pencils. Luna brand coloured pencils (the one with a symbolic sail boat on the cover) are always the best. until now i still think Luna is the best haha..
then i started to join drawing classes. learnt how to draw a nice picture, how to colour them. starting from crayons, then some water colour, pencil sketching..then i found a better teacher. thats when i improved much. but too bad i stopped my classes when i was Form 3. PMR year. government exam. my mum wanted me to concentrate on my studies. i was entering the stage of learning how to do sketches, u know sketching with real things in front of u, drawing human portrait kind of drawing, when i had to stop my classes. i never join the classes back after PMR, becos drawing was not one of my subjects in sch anymore..my mum said there was no need to join the classes anymore. it has always been a sad thing that i never join back the classes. if not i would have learnt how to draw human portraits and now i can just draw whoever i want hahaha..
still draw once in a while. but i rarely keep what i drew. they are always meant to be presents. the only thing i drew lately which i didnt give it away is a snow angel. just like the angel. drew it just to keep it for myself. one of the things that i drew which i was really quite satisfied with it is a Mitsubitshi Lancer Evo. i have never liked to draw cars n i thought the drawing would turn out bad. but i was really satisfied with it and felt quite relunctant to give it away hahaha, but still it was meant to be a gift. yesterday i drew some fungi. was short of time so i cut off some details haha. but i was still quite satisfied with the end product.
i enjoy drawing. although i cant draw very very well. just sit there, draw, colour. concentrate on what i draw. i dont really mind how long it will take me to finish my work. i just enjoy the whole process. but so far i realise all the things i draw just contain these few colours: blue, purple, black, white. maybe my life is just too blue. bright colours just cant catch my attention. they cant enter my life.
i dont know when i will draw again. will just start again when the time comes.
the picture which i followed when i drew the Evo
my blue angel. this is what i drew
my fungi
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
just like him
a new song sang by Fish Leong 梁静茹. melody n lyrics by Jay Chou. Just like Jay Chou. Just like his songs.
就是喜欢周杰伦
梁静茹-失忆
作曲：周杰伦 ｜ 填词：周杰伦
我书桌上的香水
你沉默的背对
只剩下那一点点
还是闻得到从前
西装里的口袋
我整理过的爱
又破了那一点点
我帮你补了誓言
从没实现的摇滚梦
我也陪你走好多遍
断弦的吉他
始终弹不出我要的答案
我和你拼了好几夜
约翰蓝侬的图片
却拼不到一个永远
我在等你喊停
感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试图让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好
感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友这
是借口还是尽头
西装里的口袋
我整理过的爱
又破了那一点点
我帮你补了誓言
从没实现的摇滚梦
我也陪你走好多遍
断弦的吉他
始终弹不出我要的答案
我和你拼了好几夜
约翰蓝侬的图片
却拼不到一个永远
我在等你喊停
感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试着让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好
感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友
这是借口还是尽头
感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试着让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好
感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友
这是借口还是尽头
就是喜欢周杰伦
梁静茹-失忆
作曲：周杰伦 ｜ 填词：周杰伦
我书桌上的香水
你沉默的背对
只剩下那一点点
还是闻得到从前
西装里的口袋
我整理过的爱
又破了那一点点
我帮你补了誓言
从没实现的摇滚梦
我也陪你走好多遍
断弦的吉他
始终弹不出我要的答案
我和你拼了好几夜
约翰蓝侬的图片
却拼不到一个永远
我在等你喊停
感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试图让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好
感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友这
是借口还是尽头
西装里的口袋
我整理过的爱
又破了那一点点
我帮你补了誓言
从没实现的摇滚梦
我也陪你走好多遍
断弦的吉他
始终弹不出我要的答案
我和你拼了好几夜
约翰蓝侬的图片
却拼不到一个永远
我在等你喊停
感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试着让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好
感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友
这是借口还是尽头
感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试着让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好
感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友
这是借口还是尽头
Monday, October 9, 2006
good
feel great today :) had a good sleep last night. 11pm until 8am today. for once i can just off the light, sleep on the bed properly n dont have to tell myself to wake up after 1 or 2 hours to do my work. woke up feeling refreshed today. very good :)
yesterday..needed some help. was thinking about how to settled it n was thinking who i might be able to go to, but it seemed to be just a thought. when i was on my way back to the computer lab to continue with my assignment, the ppl whom i was thinking about actually appeared right in front of me! i got the help i needed. a guardian angel who has always been helping me when i need help. but this guardian angel doesnt guard me though..just dont mind to help me sometimes. anyway i appreciate it. what happened yesterday brightened up my gloomy day.
shall get going with life today. a smile for you n me :)
yesterday..needed some help. was thinking about how to settled it n was thinking who i might be able to go to, but it seemed to be just a thought. when i was on my way back to the computer lab to continue with my assignment, the ppl whom i was thinking about actually appeared right in front of me! i got the help i needed. a guardian angel who has always been helping me when i need help. but this guardian angel doesnt guard me though..just dont mind to help me sometimes. anyway i appreciate it. what happened yesterday brightened up my gloomy day.
shall get going with life today. a smile for you n me :)
Sunday, October 8, 2006
one more
half way with my 2nd last assignment. after this is done i will have one more to go.
i guess i m just too tired with all the work. over the weekend i didnt do much work. just didnt have the mood to do it. after one whole week of rushing, i just wanted to rest for a while. everything was slowed down during the weekend. didnt rush my work. didnt do much.
still not feeling very good. still quite down.cant really do things fast. negative thoughts. low self esteem...
the depression is still not over yet.
still there
i guess i m just too tired with all the work. over the weekend i didnt do much work. just didnt have the mood to do it. after one whole week of rushing, i just wanted to rest for a while. everything was slowed down during the weekend. didnt rush my work. didnt do much.
still not feeling very good. still quite down.cant really do things fast. negative thoughts. low self esteem...
the depression is still not over yet.
still there
Saturday, October 7, 2006
a movie
i watched The Banquet twice. out of all the characters inside, i like Qing Nu (青女) the most.
an innocent character who treats ppl with a true heart. despite how cunning n bad the ppl around her are.
she is strong and determined. continues to love someone who doesnt love her in return.
she is fortunate in a way. other than a loving father, she has a brother who loves her so much.
"哥哥心里有你. 哥哥不会让任何人伤害你."
really like this sentence said by the brother to her
another fortunate thing for her is..eventhough the one that she loved didnt love her in return, at least in the end she died in his arms.
to love someone but didnt get the love which u hope that u can get in return....silly? sounds like it
but recently someone told me that no, thats not silly. thats a process.
well..true in a way. a process..which demands a price actually.
for Qing Nu, the price she paid was her life. in reality, the price maybe is just pain. disappointment. r u willing to pay such a price? u really want to love someone who does not or may not love u in return?
follow ur heart. listen to what ur heart says n do it. as long as u r happy. thats the most important thing, isn't it?
an innocent character who treats ppl with a true heart. despite how cunning n bad the ppl around her are.
she is strong and determined. continues to love someone who doesnt love her in return.
she is fortunate in a way. other than a loving father, she has a brother who loves her so much.
"哥哥心里有你. 哥哥不会让任何人伤害你."
really like this sentence said by the brother to her
another fortunate thing for her is..eventhough the one that she loved didnt love her in return, at least in the end she died in his arms.
to love someone but didnt get the love which u hope that u can get in return....silly? sounds like it
but recently someone told me that no, thats not silly. thats a process.
well..true in a way. a process..which demands a price actually.
for Qing Nu, the price she paid was her life. in reality, the price maybe is just pain. disappointment. r u willing to pay such a price? u really want to love someone who does not or may not love u in return?
follow ur heart. listen to what ur heart says n do it. as long as u r happy. thats the most important thing, isn't it?
Thursday, October 5, 2006
screwed up
i slept for the whole night n didnt do my assignments. only woke up at 4.30am. i dont know what to say..
i realise..when u r feeling really bad n u express it out somehow, eg on ur msn nick or through ur facial expression or any other body language, ppl who really care about u will really come to talk to u n make u feel better. i really appreciate ppl who have shown me some care one way or another for these few days. what they had said n done really made me feel better.
time to start work.
i realise..when u r feeling really bad n u express it out somehow, eg on ur msn nick or through ur facial expression or any other body language, ppl who really care about u will really come to talk to u n make u feel better. i really appreciate ppl who have shown me some care one way or another for these few days. what they had said n done really made me feel better.
time to start work.
Wednesday, October 4, 2006
very bad
feel EXTREMELY DEPRESSED now....feel like crying but no point la..
rushed until like dont know what for the presentation a while ago..I FEEL SO BAD
2 more things to rush tonight. one needs 2500 words. another one needs 1500 words. speechless....
i need a break tmr or weekend..i feel like watching movie. but i m very tired of asking ppl whether they can go with me or not. those that r so willing to go me r so far away from me now....
tell me what to do..sighhhhhh
i m practically stoning now..i dont know what i m typing about.
i dont know what i m doing now..WHAT ON EARTH M I DOING NOW?!?!?!?
rushed until like dont know what for the presentation a while ago..I FEEL SO BAD
2 more things to rush tonight. one needs 2500 words. another one needs 1500 words. speechless....
i need a break tmr or weekend..i feel like watching movie. but i m very tired of asking ppl whether they can go with me or not. those that r so willing to go me r so far away from me now....
tell me what to do..sighhhhhh
i m practically stoning now..i dont know what i m typing about.
i dont know what i m doing now..WHAT ON EARTH M I DOING NOW?!?!?!?
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
things that brought a smile on me today
(1) my dearie brought me pineapple tarts as she promised..so sweet
(2) my friend finally transferred the photo i wanted to me. he actually wanted to transfer all the photos he had to me but my pendrive couldnt fit them. so sorry..
(3) one of my lecturers extended the due date for the assignment. supposed to due tmr but now is due on the coming saturday
actually had a feel that things are turning better. but a while ago the happy mood went down all the way again..is ok hope tmr will be as good as today, hope that little things will happen to brighten up my day
memory
(2) my friend finally transferred the photo i wanted to me. he actually wanted to transfer all the photos he had to me but my pendrive couldnt fit them. so sorry..
(3) one of my lecturers extended the due date for the assignment. supposed to due tmr but now is due on the coming saturday
actually had a feel that things are turning better. but a while ago the happy mood went down all the way again..is ok hope tmr will be as good as today, hope that little things will happen to brighten up my day
memory
Monday, October 2, 2006
i cant take it anymore
This is actually my 100th post for this blog. i really hope that i can talk about something happy. but no la..this post will be as sad as other posts, if not sadder..
I screwed up my holidays. didnt finish up any of my work. n i couldnt make it for the deadlines today. i feel so hopeless. so sad.
one whole week full of deadlines..n i already couldnt make it for the first day of the week...sigh...how i wish someone can help me.
I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. SO DEPRESSED N HOPELESS. ALL I FEEL LIKE DOING NOW IS TO GIVE UP N CRY
but that is not going to help right? no time crying. trying to stay calm. STAY CALM
i really need some place to destress n voice out my worries. n i think the best place is still my own blog. DONT WORRY ABOUT ME if u happen to read this post within this week. i will feel this terrible for the rest of this week. after this week i will be fine. hopefully.
today is not dat bad actually. at least still have some little things happened which managed to make me feel a bit better. i hope tmr also will have things happen which can cheer me up even just a little bit. just little things will do. i hope tmr i will have some time n energy left to chat with ppl i want to chat with.
time to start work. wish me good luck tmr.
i wish you health and more than wealth. i wish you love.
I screwed up my holidays. didnt finish up any of my work. n i couldnt make it for the deadlines today. i feel so hopeless. so sad.
one whole week full of deadlines..n i already couldnt make it for the first day of the week...sigh...how i wish someone can help me.
I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. SO DEPRESSED N HOPELESS. ALL I FEEL LIKE DOING NOW IS TO GIVE UP N CRY
but that is not going to help right? no time crying. trying to stay calm. STAY CALM
i really need some place to destress n voice out my worries. n i think the best place is still my own blog. DONT WORRY ABOUT ME if u happen to read this post within this week. i will feel this terrible for the rest of this week. after this week i will be fine. hopefully.
today is not dat bad actually. at least still have some little things happened which managed to make me feel a bit better. i hope tmr also will have things happen which can cheer me up even just a little bit. just little things will do. i hope tmr i will have some time n energy left to chat with ppl i want to chat with.
time to start work. wish me good luck tmr.
i wish you health and more than wealth. i wish you love.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
feeling great
i m feeling GREAT today :)
no more diarrhoeas since last night. high spirit today. the weather is so good, bright sunny day, just like my mood now haha..
have never felt this good for quite some time. i guess the idea of going home tmr really motivates me.
really have to get some work done today. finally get into the mood to do my work hahaa..
my heart really rules my head too much sometimes. but i cant help it. thats me :)
have a nice day!
no more diarrhoeas since last night. high spirit today. the weather is so good, bright sunny day, just like my mood now haha..
have never felt this good for quite some time. i guess the idea of going home tmr really motivates me.
really have to get some work done today. finally get into the mood to do my work hahaa..
my heart really rules my head too much sometimes. but i cant help it. thats me :)
have a nice day!
a plan that went wrong
my one week break started since last saturday. wanted to go home on sunday, but couldnt make it. thought i could go back on monday, but didnt make it too. so the next date is this coming friday.
couldnt go back becos i took my own sweet time to clear up my room. i need the internet and i should have tried my best to finish up my research for the pile of reports and assignments, all of which are due in the week right after the break, so that i could go home as i planned. but i didnt. thats y i m still in KL.
usually holidays r for me to rest. at home in JB i cant online, n the only way i can be reached is through my hp. thus, it is the best time for me to isolate myself from the world for a while. a period of time for me to rest, to clear up my mind, to reflect, to concentrate on my work, to recharge. this time round i m stucked in KL. in KL i have my own room. i m the only living thing in the room, and thats a bit too depressing for me. thus since long time ago i get into the habit of staying online, having my msn on, playing music most of the time, so that i wont feel too lonely in the room. for normal school days or weekends i m fine with this way of living. but for holidays, i prefer to go home n get away from the world, which i still cant do it yet for this holidays.
for these few days, i m still online. i just want the msn on to keep me company, to chat with ppl when i feel like doing it n i dont mind ppl chatting with me. i dont mind casual talks. but these days, when i m online, i become a target for help on sch work. one or two questions, fine. whole bunch of them?? PLEASE. GIVE ME A BREAK. i havent started on my work yet. i dont know the answers. it is not that i dont want to help, but i really dont know. sigh...i dont know wat to say.
my mood has not been good for some time. i have been looking forward to the day to go home to adjust myself but the day has been delayed becos of my own fault. i wish ppl can just chat with me becos they care about me, want to know how my life is, how i m feeling now. but most of the time ppl chat with me becos they need help for their work. it is not that i dont want to help, but i m just a bit too tired when ppl just throw me with strings of questions. sigh..
today i started to have diarrhoea. i thought today after i woke up i could just start clearing off my work but i ended up spending most of my time on the bed n in toilet. i m turning sick n i have tonnes of work to clear off. i want to go home but i need the internet.
i m physically weak. emotionally weak. all i want now is to concentrate on my work. please chat with me becos u care about me n want to cheer me up, not becos u need help from me.
but anyway dont worry la. i will be fine.
couldnt go back becos i took my own sweet time to clear up my room. i need the internet and i should have tried my best to finish up my research for the pile of reports and assignments, all of which are due in the week right after the break, so that i could go home as i planned. but i didnt. thats y i m still in KL.
usually holidays r for me to rest. at home in JB i cant online, n the only way i can be reached is through my hp. thus, it is the best time for me to isolate myself from the world for a while. a period of time for me to rest, to clear up my mind, to reflect, to concentrate on my work, to recharge. this time round i m stucked in KL. in KL i have my own room. i m the only living thing in the room, and thats a bit too depressing for me. thus since long time ago i get into the habit of staying online, having my msn on, playing music most of the time, so that i wont feel too lonely in the room. for normal school days or weekends i m fine with this way of living. but for holidays, i prefer to go home n get away from the world, which i still cant do it yet for this holidays.
for these few days, i m still online. i just want the msn on to keep me company, to chat with ppl when i feel like doing it n i dont mind ppl chatting with me. i dont mind casual talks. but these days, when i m online, i become a target for help on sch work. one or two questions, fine. whole bunch of them?? PLEASE. GIVE ME A BREAK. i havent started on my work yet. i dont know the answers. it is not that i dont want to help, but i really dont know. sigh...i dont know wat to say.
my mood has not been good for some time. i have been looking forward to the day to go home to adjust myself but the day has been delayed becos of my own fault. i wish ppl can just chat with me becos they care about me, want to know how my life is, how i m feeling now. but most of the time ppl chat with me becos they need help for their work. it is not that i dont want to help, but i m just a bit too tired when ppl just throw me with strings of questions. sigh..
today i started to have diarrhoea. i thought today after i woke up i could just start clearing off my work but i ended up spending most of my time on the bed n in toilet. i m turning sick n i have tonnes of work to clear off. i want to go home but i need the internet.
i m physically weak. emotionally weak. all i want now is to concentrate on my work. please chat with me becos u care about me n want to cheer me up, not becos u need help from me.
but anyway dont worry la. i will be fine.
Monday, September 25, 2006
uncertainty
there are many uncertainties in life, arent there? or rather, how certain can u be for most of the things in life?
i m not sure how certain things will turn out in future. currently things seem to be going well in a way. but the reality is telling me that things wont work out the way i hope they will be.
my head is telling me to be real. better stop. it is not going to work.
but my heart tells me to try. no harm. so why not?
well i dont know. what my head says is quite true but..haih.
maybe i should just remember wat my friend said to me. ya..very sound advice.
well..shall just see how. things will work the way they are meant to be. thats life, isnt it?
i m not sure how certain things will turn out in future. currently things seem to be going well in a way. but the reality is telling me that things wont work out the way i hope they will be.
my head is telling me to be real. better stop. it is not going to work.
but my heart tells me to try. no harm. so why not?
well i dont know. what my head says is quite true but..haih.
maybe i should just remember wat my friend said to me. ya..very sound advice.
well..shall just see how. things will work the way they are meant to be. thats life, isnt it?
Sunday, September 24, 2006
break
Have not been blogging for quite some time. busy. last week was quite a busy n stressful week: 1 mid term test, 1 assignment. finally nothing turned out too bad i guess. i hope.
Last friday (22/9/2006), assignment due date n also Monash Ball 2006. rushed my assignment until afternoon, finally got it done n went to the salon to have my hair n make up done. just like last year. last year on the day for Monash Ball we also had an assignment due n i rushed until the very end too before finally went to get ready for the ball...sigh. bad habit is REALLY HARD to change. i m just not determined enough i guess.
So..for the ball. at first i was feeling quite excited. but then started to feel bored n moody. camera battery ran out really early. didnt take too much photos. sigh. the night was actually brightened up by someone. didnt expect to see him there. so was a bit surprised to meet him there. glad that finally found a chance to take a photo with him. nice little surprise for the night :) after the ball went mamak with my friends, had quite a good time during mamak. and thats the end of the ball night. glad that i still have some nice memory for the night. not too bad afterall.
This week is actually my one week break. but i m still stucked in KL becos i need to use the internet to do some research for my pile of reports n assignments. back at home in JB i dont have internet connection so i cant go home yet. i m only going home on this friday. sigh....
Guess this week wont be too happy. so much work. stucked in KL. cant go home early. sigh my mind is in a mess la..anyway going to put up some of my favourite photos for the ball. i have more on my friendster.
my dearie
left: Monash Ball 2005. right: Monash Ball 2006. deja vu? how can it be so alike? haha. sometimes coincidence really does happen in life.
shall move on with life today.
Last friday (22/9/2006), assignment due date n also Monash Ball 2006. rushed my assignment until afternoon, finally got it done n went to the salon to have my hair n make up done. just like last year. last year on the day for Monash Ball we also had an assignment due n i rushed until the very end too before finally went to get ready for the ball...sigh. bad habit is REALLY HARD to change. i m just not determined enough i guess.
So..for the ball. at first i was feeling quite excited. but then started to feel bored n moody. camera battery ran out really early. didnt take too much photos. sigh. the night was actually brightened up by someone. didnt expect to see him there. so was a bit surprised to meet him there. glad that finally found a chance to take a photo with him. nice little surprise for the night :) after the ball went mamak with my friends, had quite a good time during mamak. and thats the end of the ball night. glad that i still have some nice memory for the night. not too bad afterall.
This week is actually my one week break. but i m still stucked in KL becos i need to use the internet to do some research for my pile of reports n assignments. back at home in JB i dont have internet connection so i cant go home yet. i m only going home on this friday. sigh....
Guess this week wont be too happy. so much work. stucked in KL. cant go home early. sigh my mind is in a mess la..anyway going to put up some of my favourite photos for the ball. i have more on my friendster.
my dearie
left: Monash Ball 2005. right: Monash Ball 2006. deja vu? how can it be so alike? haha. sometimes coincidence really does happen in life.
shall move on with life today.
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