happy new year

on the very first day of 2009...during the very first hour of the day...i have already shed my tears.

tell me, how can i be happy for the rest of the year?

please tell me everything is going to be fine.

happy new year

happy working sunday

working on sundays has never been a happy thing for me. i have to work from 9am to 6pm alone in the lab when most of the people are relaxing at home.

except for today.

on working sundays, i will get ready my own lunch, which is usually just bread and coffee, and get it over with in the lab. dont feel like leaving the lab alone, walking in and out of the lab where the whole area is so deserted that sometimes you can hardly even see a car driving pass on sunday afternoons.

but for today, he spent about 30 mins driving from his house to the lab, just to pack lunch for me.

other than packing lunch for me, he also became my guinea pig when i asked him to teach me how to draw blood..hahaa. thank god his blood test shows a totally normal result. not a thalassemia carrier like me :)

so far so good...hope everything is not just a beautiful dream

love?

things are happening very fast

we did talk to each other before through phone, because of work. but we have never met each other before until about 1 week plus ago during the annual dinner. on 13/12.

then we became friendster friends. and then we started sms-ing each other, and started chatting on msn.

we had our first date on 21/12.

and now he msgs me everyday.

i was out just now to meet evona, chee hou and eugene. and had to travel back home myself. it was already 10 plus pm. and i only managed to reach home around 11.30pm. within this period of time, he msged now and then to ask if i had reached home safely..until finally when i sent the msg saying dat i had reached home, then only he went to bed. which was already 12am plus.

all these happened within less than 2 weeks..so fast until i am confused. should i just go ahead with it? or should i keep a distance some how?

just hope that nothing bad will turn out. no casualties. and hopefully, a happy ending.

silly

..and thats me.

too nice to the people around me. too nice to the people that i care about. too nice to the people that i thought they deserve my care. what do i get in return? nothing.

are you really that forgetful? maybe. and maybe my expectation is a little too high. thats why i find it hard not to be angry when you make mistakes.

so back to the very beginning. it is me again who expect too much. it is me again who make my own life hard. yes it is all my fault.

my fault.

i m just silly.

touched

"yea. but if you want to start all over again also good. i will support you no matter what decision you make."

so heart-warming...thanks :)

another day

watched Madagascar 2 on friday.. there was this part where Melman the giraffe decided to confess to Gloria the hippo about his feelings towards her, but when he found her, she was actually half way dating Moto Moto, the male hippo. instead of telling her how much he likes her, Melman grabbed Moto Moto and told him to treat Gloria well, and told him how to treat her nice, what her favourite breakfast was..what to do just to see her sweet smile...

quite touching. and i nearly cried. maybe it was because of the afterwork tiredness, which makes me emotionally weak and tend to feel sad easily. but...how i wish someone would do the same for me too..remembering every single thing about me, knowing how to make me happy when i am down. understands me so so well..cares about me. loves me.

i am just so depressed. i guess i am just too tired. these 2 weeks i have to work continuously without any break in between. today is the 7th day. i have another 6 more days to go.

i am having the second interview tomorrow. but...do i really wanna leave? too early for any decisions. wait till i get the offer.

should start my work now before i regret later..time to work

我被困在一个人的峡谷 多想要却要不到你安抚

kid

i think i am behaving more and more like a small kid. when i am happy, i laugh. when i am sad or too angry, i just cry. eventhough i know crying cannot solve any problems.

i was really happy this morning when i received the call. a job interview..they responded really fast, i only submitted the application last night, after midnight. and this morning they gave me a call.

seriously hope that this will be something good. then i can kiss them goodbye. go ahead and process the sample yourself! shit.

i am very tired. will have an early rest. wish me good luck.

*my new hairband from Mc D.. :)

wish of the day

let me die. thank you.

crushed

too many things happen this week..i am just so tired

she has left us forever on Tuesday morning..i have never lost anyone close forever before, this is the first time. i just didnt know how to react. couldnt accept it, didnt want to accept it. but had to learn how to accept it. indeed very sad. i couldnt cry when i really felt like doing so, because it was working hours, but when i finally reached home at night, there were no more tears eventhough i was sad. wanna cry but there was no tears...it was so hard trying to put on a smile during work. so hard to hide how i felt. but managed to find someone to have a good chat yesterday night. i am all fine now. really appreciate the emails and messages that i received, thanks for the concern. may you rest in peace...

my wonderful lab manager has left the lab. quite sad, because all of us had such a nice time working with her. thanks to her training, i have turned from a newbie who knows nothing much about her job, to someone who can now work independently (at least most of the time) in her department. hope she will be happy in her life

i really dont know what i did to deserve all the no-replies on msn and facebook. i just wanted to know why. so i emailed, and tried to start a conversation again, but it only made things worse. another block on msn. why dont you just tell me on the face that you hate me? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS???? T E L L M E! i am a human too! i have feeling too! thanks for crushing me with another bad news after all the bad news this week. go ahead and do whatever you want. i am sad enough already. no big deal with another bad news. WHATEVER

but i am really glad that my ex-boss's wife managed to give birth to a lovely baby girl today. what a perfect family now...

and they showed the movie that i like so much on tv just now...nice.

i dont know how long it will take for me to fully recover. emotionally crushed. cant really feel anything now. i just want to have a good rest

cuties

Bought these for her. i know she likes them by the way she touches them..i love them so much that i nearly keep them for myself. cant help but feel happy when i look at them


always by your side



you and i

.....

full of hatred. i dont know what to say

get another new job? i dont know. i only know i start to cry a lot after i started working there. just like the time when i was having a hard time during my pre-U. and same thing happens again: i dont like the sad part but i like the people there. i dont wanna leave just like that. i guess i will still stick on for a while more...or should i?

finally met her last weekend. she is not as bad as i imagine...but is bad enough to crush my heart. if only i can visit her often. i think this is the first time i witness with my own eyes how illness tortures people.....stop torturing her, wouldnt you?

i hate self-centered people. yes i do. people come all the way to such a far place, and you make me lose the chance to meet them for a longer time because you cant / dont want to wake up in the morning????? you dont know that i do get angry, no?

time to get off. good bye

another night

i think i should never blog at night, especially on weekdays after work haha..i dont think there will be much nice things to be talked about, since i am tired. and sadness usually goes with tiredness. but i will try

i wish the night can be longer. so that i can upload all the photos that i want to upload. tonnes of them waiting for me to have a look. i will find one day

i need a sun in my life. are you the one i am looking for?

grumble

emotion going up and down these days.

very down when i see that people are rushing up to give her a visit. i really want to know how she is. one more week to go before i can see her. i hope our plan will go well.

work..good and bad. i am still not fast enough. i need to be faster. i am trying..can you just stop saying that i am not fast enough????.....colleagues are fine. lab manager is friendly. there are times when i feel quite happy by the end of the day. next week i will be all alone in my department. lets see how i can turn myself into a wonderwoman/superwoman/whatever who can finish all the work by the end of the day, on time, no OT

very lonely. the house has turned so quiet after my uncle and aunt went to Sabah. there is only me alone at home when my cousin is coming home late. no one to talk to. and i feel the need to talk to someone. please dont sound bad to me when i am trying to have a conversation. i just need someone to talk to. how i wish making phone calls is free. msn is free, but i am too tired to get online, and...well it doesnt guarentee that i can get the right person to talk to. i am so lonely

i hope tomorrow will be a better day

hang on

i dont know what to say about life.

please hang on there..we are going to meet you very soon. may god bless you. please bless her. PLEASE

why is the world so small? i dont want to bump into him anymore. please.

i am very tired.

tired

next stop

tired of sunway. i wanna leave here

thoughts of the night

i hate olympic. i miss my drama of the day because of it

i should work OT more. so that i can go over to my cousin's office to meet his cool colleagues while waiting for him to go home together. really friendly bunch of people

i found the pair of high heels that i have been looking for. finally. nice looking. just the right height. i hope it is the correct pair. brings me happiness but not pain

Nike shoes are good. you should invest on it if you want a pair of comfortable and long-lasting shoes. the last pair i had lasted me more than 1 year. i hope the new pair will do the same

the new cd is good. but a little regret...not as good as i thought i guess

yes. spent a lot of money lately. but i dont care. i am happy by the end of the day

my next targets: a bag, an mp3 player. not just any mp3 player, i want a Sony mp3 player

yes. i will pay for it as long as it makes me happy. as long as i m happy

the ending song of the drama that i am watching now..

林宥嘉 - 背影

game over

have always wanted to say this. but it has never been a game. but it means the same anyway

this is not the first time i get blocked. but for all these years i have always forgiven you

but not this time. not anymore

thats it

good or bad

not sure whether i should classified today as a good day or a bad one.

another OT day. i so felt like crying when 6pm was reaching and yet i still had so many samples that i had to process....my colleagues, or i should actually said my superiors actually, helped me to do some of the tests and i still ended up staying back late. because by the time i finished processing those left for me, night had already reached. too dark and dangerous for me to travel back by my own....oh god. i am getting paid for OT (i assume i can get them for this month) but i am not in need of money! i just wanna get home and rest. yesterday i was so tired that i felt quite dizzy and had a terrible headache....i dont know what to say. I H A T E O T

but for today, due to the desicion to stay back late and wait for my cousin to go home together, i ended up having dinner with my cousin and all of his colleagues. made some new friends :) my cousin's boss's wife was so friendly that she lent me her CSI dvd to watch while waiting for my cousin to finish his work. so nice.

and ya..thanks for the call last night. eventhough i was half way sleeping already, the idea of having ppl to call me and find out why i was depressed was nice. thanks :)

i hope i can watch Wall-E this week :)

dont know whats wrong

quite a depressed day. possible causes?? not enough sleep? have to work for a full day on a saturday? ended the day with OT again?.....i dont know.

started the day in a half-awake state. then got some bad news from my ex-lab mate. i was just too surprised and i blew my top. what?!?!! you cant even send me an sms to let me know that you cant make it???? i dont understand. but thanks anyway. i was really awake after knowing it.

i really like this paragraph in the book that i am reading now..

'There were many skies.
The sky was invaded by great white clouds, flat on the bottom but round and billowy on top.
The sky was completely cloudless, of a blue quite shattering to the senses.
The sky was a heavy, suffocating blanket of grey cloud, but without promise of rain.
The sky was thinly overcast.
The sky was dappled with small, white, fleecy clouds.
The sky was streaked with high, thin clouds that looked like a cotton ball stretched apart.
The sky was a featureless miky haze.
The sky was a density of dark ad blustery rain clouds that passed by without delivering rain.
The sky was painted with a small number of flat clouds that looked like sandbars.
The sky was a mere block to allow a visual effect on the horizon: sunlight flooding the ocean, the vertical edges between light and shadow perfectly distinct.
The sky was a distant black curtain of falling rain.
The sky was many clouds at many levels, some thick and opaque, others looking like smoke.
The sky was black and spitting rain on my smiling face.
The sky was nothing but failing water, a ceaseless deluge that wrinkled and bloated my skin and froze me stiff.' (from Life of Pi by Yann Martel)

the sentences are actually arranged one after another, in a normal paragraph form. but i wanted to see the different skies so i separated them. so many different types of skies..and you can even picture each of them clearly in your head. very beautiful description of the lovely skies. no? the different skies are kind of like the different types of human mood...i always feel that the weather resembles our mood

field trip tomorrow. Yay :)

and i realise that my bosses are all quite attractive hahahaa...the previous ones and the current one. envy their other half

take care

quite tired actually. head a little spinning..but still feel like going online for a while. just wanna have a chat

work..quite ok actually. just that i dont like the idea of leaving the lab later than i should...and still waiting for a bus to go home eventhough the day has already turned dark. this is just normal working hours and i finish my work in the evening. tmr i will have the first taste of afternoon shift, and lets see how i can get home after i finish my work AT NIGHT. great. i love transport problem, dont i?

and i start to wonder...is my life going to be like this forever? go to work, come back home at night, then sleep, and work all over again...no, is not that i like to complain. just a little wonder.

i hope things will turn better for you very soon, d ying. hugz

sad to know that something bad has happened to another friend. condolence to you

new start

first day of my new job..not too bad actually :) so far everyone is quite friendly. hope things will continue to be good

last day of my old job (18/7) was very fun haha..had a nice lunch with everyone. had a nice cake and a T-shirt with everyone's wishes on as farewell gifts. very sweet...photos next time k.

and then reached the 2 weeks of nightmare. had a viral infection...which ended up as an allergic reaction due to the wrong medicine given by the doctor..my god..scary red rashes all over, and the itchyness was HORRIBLE. for the last 2 weeks, i spent almost all of my time at home, 1 week in kl, 1 week in jb. if not at home, means i was either in the clinic/hospital/medical centre meeting a doctor or getting my blood tested. thank god everything is ok now. i hope so..

things seem to be ok now..at least better than the past. i am grateful

farewell..soon

started to feel sad after i let everyone knew that this Friday will be my last day at work

well despite the little grumblings here and there, i did have much fun working there. all the field trips, the plantation that i have been going for this one year, the people that i meet all these while, my colleagues...i will miss them

leaving is always sad..but it also marks a new start, which we should be happy about. no?

sunday night

the movie that we watched together was shown on tv just now. i wonder whether you still remember

was supposed to search for jobs..but ended up downloading songs, reading blogs, looking at the recent graduation photos of friends. congratulations to those who have just graduated! :)

found a job actually. low pay, long working days..no better offers now, so will just stick with it first. havent started yet, but very soon. maybe i shouldnt complain. at least i managed to get one

i didnt know 'smoke gets in your eyes' is a sad love song

when a lovely flame dies, smoke gets in your eyes

not sure

Life is getting boring. i turn lazier lately..and now i am getting restless.

i think the job hunt is giving me pressure.

somehow i lose the momentum in life after i complete my studies..haih

i hope life will get better soon. more excitement. more fun.

i hope i will feel better soon.

i need a new start

new look

:)

nice?

happy :) but not going to tell you why :p

back..for more?

just came back from JB today. thats where i was for the past few days, if you have been wondering why i disappeared online since last friday.

many things to settle..started settling things once i reached KL in the afternoon. one of them is my hair. bye bye long hair..hahaaa. too tired to take a picture now. show you another day

once online, went through emails as fast as i can while listening to updates from my labmate. went through blogs to see if everyone is ok...dropped by facebook..i am very tired. i just want to sleep

but better update my blog for a while since i have not been saying anything for so long.

i wonder if you still read my blog. do you?

almost free

finally handed in my thesis on friday! :) almost free. left with viva next week..

couldnt really describe how i felt when i held that book of thesis in my hands. all those hard work, effort, stress, tears, worries, blood and sweat...all in the form of a book in my hands. well, thats it. time to rest and relax for a while :p

so friday turned out to be a movie day..went to watch Iron Man and Kung Fu Panda. both were nice :) Iron Man. so man hahah..Kung Fu Panda. very funny. i dont mind watching it again

weekends..time to clear up all the mess. almost done. was a little lazy so didnt finish them up haha..had the same feeling that i had after i finished my A levels: the sudden emptiness. was really busy ffor quite a long time and now suddenly i am so free. dont know what to do with all the time i have haha..so finally get myself engaged in some dramas. what else can i do?..ya i will start preparing for my viva.

brand new start tomorrow :)

a little better

quite happy today. not because i have finished my thesis though hahaha....i am still on it. pathetic me

decided to take a short break today

watched a movie, eventhough i had no plans for it initially..Narnia 2. save your money seriously. no point

finally bought the cd that i wanted to buy for so long :) hahaa.. 伍家辉－虽然我愿意. this is his first album, and yet it is quite a good one. 9 out of the 10 songs are nice. i hope he can last long in the music industry

had a little pleasant surprise today..sometimes it is quite hard not to believe in fate haha

nice day

adjusting

messed up. need to rest for a while.

struggling with the thesis. still have quite a lot to do. trying very hard to stay calm.

feel really sad that i cant join the trip tomorrow. i really want to go...

dont really feel like chatting. but when i want to chat badly, the connection doesnt allow me to do so. please, for goodness's sake, just give me a few minutes.

i think the best for me is just to keep quiet. i am feeling very bad. i dont want to hurt anyone. i start conversations, hoping that i will some how feel more relaxed. unfortunately, the conversations cannot sustain.

grumpy. worried. nervous. sad. i can hardly breathe. i wish i can cry. but i cant.

i will be fine

useless

i am very angry with myself. i am just SO USELESS AND PATHETIC!!!

everyone is going to pass up the thesis soon. me?!?!?!??????

and still want to think about the turtle trip?!?!?!? just stay here and do your work!

do not deserve anything. deserve nothing!!

i am just useless

temporary joy

finally finished my project on tuesday! and also survived the presentation on thursday! :D

whats left now..thesis, coursework examination and viva (the FINAL final presentation)


i was SO HAPPY after my presentation was over on thursday...has been such a long time since the last time i felt so happy and relieved hahah...i was supposed to feel very happy too when i finished my project on tuesday, but i had to rush out the data list to prepare for the presentation..so not in the mood yet. really have to thank everyone out there who had given me help/support one way or another, especially my supervisor..she has done SO MUCH for me until i feel so guilty. THANK YOU!


my happy mood carried over on friday. wanted to give myself a little break by watching a movie and getting the cd that i want. my first and second choices were Speed Racer and Ironman, but the timing for neither of them were suitable for me..so ended up watching What Happens in Vegas, starring Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz. nice comedy :) very relaxing. but i still havent bought the cd that i want...a little incident happened. when i was comfortably sitting in the cinema waiting for the movie, my supervisor gave me a call, telling me there was a thesis which was quite suitable for me....so after the movie, i made my way back to the uni to find her. she is making so much effort to help me, i cant possibly call myself human if i dont appreciate her help. i wonder when i will be able to get the cd and also to watch these 2 movies..

next week will be the field trip to watch the turtles...i am not allowed to go, unless i can finish my thesis by then. haih......

nice pic (looks a bit like me haha..same long hair, with my favourite colour on..)

by the way, congratulations to those who has just graduated unofficially!!! enjoy yourself to the fullest!!!! :)

barely alive

i dont even have one now which is big enough for me to have a good hug..

the good things about staying back late in the lab are, i will end up feeling happy because we will somehow have some fun, and the connection is very stable. i can have proper chats if i want to. so if you dont reply means....?!?!?!?!?!?!?????? is ok. WHATEVER.

havent had any proper sleep for 2 nights. i feel like a zombie.

i seriously do not know how i can survive for these few weeks.

"everything will be fine in the end". and i seriously hope so.

unpredictable

sometimes i hate myself for being such an emotional person. i hate that.

really appreciate that i have nice labmates who can tolerate me. well we are trying to be understanding for each other now, since all of us are stressed. but still, they are really nice ppl.

yesterday my supervisor gave me a call, just to see how i was doing. asked me not to panick, offered to drop by the lab and help me if i really want..touched

tried to have some break last week. met up with yan min for dinner last friday

the background looks nice





celebrated my cousin's birthday last sunday. the exact date was actually on monday, but we had an early celebration.

couldn't wait to cut the cake hahaa

i bought him a wallet. and his colleagues bought him a wallet too! hahaha..what a coincidence

i am not a fan of classical music. but i have always liked Canon in D. and i have found another new love lately

Sarah Brightman and Andrea Bocelli - Time to Say Goodbye

Beautiful song

try

still can feel the remnant of stress in me, eventhough it is the very very end of the day. need to do something to relax a little more.

luck has been on my side. the presentation date is postponed again, for another week. but it didnt really decrease my stress level much though..i am still trying very hard to finish up the project. MUST TRY HARDER

my internet connection has turned really bad since the day we started using a new router-modem thing. just so annoyed at times. cant have proper chats. can i at least have some proper chats at times?????? i am not getting a reply because my message didnt get through? or what? dont want to reply me??

i will try to smile more. talk more. i will try.

just a song

fall in love with this song

伍家辉－虽然我愿意


就算我们之间有什么问题 依然想念着你
虽然我放弃 虽然我愿意

brink

still like him.

SMAP - Lion Heart


he is the first one who starts singing in this video. just in case you dont know who i am talking about.

one more week to go before my presentation. and i am still struggling to finish my project. tomorrow is a Sunday. and I am going back to uni. i have no choice. i have to go.

behaved badly today, especially in the morning. still feel quite guilty, to think about it now. we had steamboat for dinner today. didnt talk much, eventhough everyone was having a great time. i am sorry

stupid things that i did these few days:
(i) friday: during lunch, ordered spicy hot noodles without realising what i ordered was spicy hot. i only knew it was spicy hot when my noodles came...spicy hot topping plus steaming hot noodles. could hardly eat it. but had to la...

(ii) today: wanted to make a cup of coffee. i poured in another pack of 3-in-1 coffee powder into the cup, eventhough i already poured 1 pack into the cup. only realised what i did after i had a taste of the coffee.. it was super duper sweet compared to the normal taste....double dose of caffeine and sugar. my poor body system..

just not focusing..too worried

happy things today:
(i) when i was walking towards the place where i planned to have my lunch, a senior from another lab asked me to join in to have lunch together with the group of them. didnt have lunch alone today, eventhough i was alone in my own lab

(ii) talking to dingying. thanks :)

i should really catch some sleep..

just me

after some sleep, a little bit of coffee and a little more talk with my friends, finally getting over what happened today.

i am quite stressed already. so even small things can turn me crazy.

what happened today is actually not very significant. but it really hurt me. i am just too naive.

feel so touched, looking at the little pictures that my supervisor drew for me today. you can go ahead and say that i am crazy/stupid whatever, but i am really going to keep these little drawings nicely for long, as long as i can keep them.

i should get on with life. tomorrow is a brand new day :)

better

this week has been quite ok. quite happy most of the time :)


celebrated Yong's birthday on monday, together with another 2 juniors, Nova and Shen.


birthday boy with his cake

relieved..finally blowed out all the candles after 2 tries

Nova is very good in birthday celebration hahaa...she was the one who started all the play. she asked Yong to pull out the candle using his mouth. 'can, but u have to eat this part of the cake!'

so he partitioned out the part for Nova..

...and she actually pushed his head down to the cake when he tried to take out the candle :p

thats it, cream all over the face! but didnt push hard so not much actually. next time :p

can eat already :)

i suggested to take a group pic, and thats when the cream fight started hhahaa. instead of eating the cake, they played with the cream! i didnt join in..me want no cream on me

i wonder how the 2 of them managed to put the cream all over him hahaha..shirt, face, chair, ears..everywhere!

neck also got! hahahaa..

done! cleaning time hahaa

proper pic before we left the room :)

it was quite fun, thanks to the juniors. laughed so much hahahaaa..got the correct people for the celebration, but bought the wrong cake! not enough whipped cream :p the thought of having not enough whipped cream did come across in my mind when i chose the cake, but i was too lazy to search for another one hahaaa. imagine if i buy one which is full of whipped cream...well anyway, hope the birthday boy had fun :)

tuesday received a good news: our presentation date is postponed!!! i was actually quite depressed that evening, and the news just made me so happy! hahaaa..i guess i am just too depressed these days and god decided to cheer me up a little. thank you

thursday night, stayed back in the lab with one of my labmates to do some work. after dinner, disaster started..allergy attack!!! my god....in a few hours time, red patches were all over me, it was so itchy until i couldnt even sleep eventhough i was so tired. thank god with the help of the correct soap it turned better. this is the second time in my life..just so scary. the red patches just make me so panicked everytime. please dont ever happen again..

friday..had a hair cut. my hair is a little too long, so i have it trimmed a little bit. it was trimmed by a student in a hairdressing academy, so didnt cost me much. but....just not 100% satisfied. the ends dont look the way i want them to be. maybe i shouldnt have saved the money. should i bear with it or waste some more money to trim it somemore? i dont know..haihzz

today i am quite happy too. initially i planned to stay at home n work on my thesis, but went back to the lab anyway. had a good nap in the afternoon, and cleared up most of my mess

my belated birthday present from Chai Har :) got it long time ago but i didnt open it up until today. the lion and the lollipop are just so cute! love them

another night wasted. no progress for thesis. good job. WORK HARD FOR GOODNESS'S SAKE!

april

good morning.

thanks for dropping by. i know somehow you still care to know whether i m still breathing or not. or maybe just plain curiosity to see what this girl is thinking..whatever

what do you wanna know about me?

hows my thesis going on?

hows my project? have i managed to finish it since the due date is just around the corner?

how am i feeling these days?

do i sleep, eat, at least spend some time with my bf, which is the tv?

how much do i cry over these few weeks?

i hope the next post will be something good. bear with me. cannot panda. i dont want panda

bits and pieces of life

last wednesday at work..one of the lessons for the education programme at the indian primary school at the plantation

one of the little experiments for the students..using celery stick and coloured dye to show the process of transpiration


control..celery sticks in plain water

set 1..celery sticks in blue coloured dye

the leaves of the control. normal green

leaves of set 1..the leaves turning blue

....and more blue. lovely..

my point is the sign board..but just nice there was a kingfisher just there..black-capped kingfisher? my guess

how the sky looked like by the time we finished everything and returned to uni

the seed of the chinese lantern plant (Physalis alkekengi). the white heart shape is natural, which makes the seed looking so cute...and no, i didnt turn so crazy until i draw a heart shape at the seed hahaaa..thats what one of my friends said when i showed her the seed

Stop and stare

You start to wonder why you're here not there

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can you see what I see

last week

still thinking about the field trip last weekend. the ecology field trip. finally had the chance to sit down, go through all the photos and post them up. the trip was quite ok..but the mosquitoes were TERRIFYING. they came in SWAMPS. BIG SWAMPS. all these years the condition has never been so bad before. i guess it was just because of the rain....just our luck. started to love my camera more..can zoom all the way to take the pictures of the lovely birds :) and i realise the significance of a tripod..especially for bird shooting. my hands are already not very steady, plus they were so tired after carrying all the meters to the various sites, they just trembled horribly on the second morning when i was trying to shoot the birds. but seriously, i have no complains for the workload, because all the other 3 helpers around were all guys. they worked so much harder than me (well at least for 2 of them, the other one i dont know...). thank god that they were around

some pictures...more on facebook

the monkey on the bird watching tower that i went on the first morning

wanted to take the long shadow caused by the sunshine..failed attempt

a corner of the place where we stayed

right in front of our dorm

grey heron

bye..

at the entrance of the mangrove

beauty by the lake

great egret?

was quite busy at the mangrove..helping the students who got stucked in the mangrove mud, measuring this and that..finally reached the last site which was at the end of the mangrove. the sky was so so blue that i just had to take a shot of it before i left, eventhough my hands were covered with mud. only had time to take one shot though..just one shot

went up to Bukit Melawati for the sunset again...but there was nothing much to watch. thanks to the rain. so sad..

lovely couple

had to leave the hill because of the rain. haihz..

second morning at the bird watching tower

nice sunrise

little monkeys playing on the tree

great weather at the Gombak forest

the remaining of the 300-year-old tree that fell down..due to old age. in the past we were always amazed by its height, its huge trunk, its age...and now..thats it..

my supervisor Dr Cathy, and my labmate Tse Yuen

after the field trip..life carries on, despite all the tiredness, sore, whatever. emotinally very unstable..stressed because of the invetebrate identification, tired because of the field trips, plus the thesis..JUST CRAZY. hopefully next week will be a better week, seriously hope so